Looking

Back.... do you? once a decision is made better to look forward to it and leave the past behind... easier said than done. Another life changing decision. Once again... 2 years later. Something for the better I hope. Still, not what my dreams are but trying to come to terms with what this may mean, what this may bring for all of us.
Looking at the stars before bedtime. Looking out the window every morning, colors, horizon, mountain, piece of sea, clean air. After all these are the things I came to appreciate here in this village... hostile to me otherwise. The quiet atmosphere, only the sounds of the kids and nature.... all these will be missed but replaced by other memories.

Bright and Sunny Beautiful Spring day.... April 2012.... Felicidades a mi hermanita.... que la quiero mucho.Wishing you a better year with peace and love.

Mom and son day today! fun projects!!
have a wonderful day you too.

Changes

Are necessary. No matter what society, what culture around the globe, we all react the same way to injustice and corruption with the same anger, the same frustration, the same fights. Tibet, Madrid, Athens, NYC, DC, Middle East, Far East and the list goes on.
Changes bring uncertainty, uneasiness, doubts, fear but also hope, excitement, some kind of calm and peace of mind for a perhaps easier life.
A-ma-zing sunsets in Thessaloniki..... in California.

re-open ;-)

Silence

is good... with all its tones. I can hear it. For peace of mind it's necessary not for lack of communication. For me it is silence and explosion nothing in between.

 The best thing about DST are the sunrise colors. I would prefer no DST otherwise.
Have a great day. Keep reminding myself that this day will not come back. Smile :D

dissapointment

Fever

Spring fever that is! it is real! 9am sunny, 18C the kids running out in the balcony like crazy... but the best part is a note from a special friend this morning ;-) hola! holita! wish I was there.
Silly laughs with the kids! Popeye, Tom and Jerry. Not bad considering the news around the world. How important it is my mood to my kids! they are my reflexion. Lets have a great day!
Miss you.

New

Moon. I like it, dark, more stars visible over the window. Feeling small when looking at them but big inside. Comfort, I like that word, that feeling, I want it, some comfort here.
Excited with some projects in mind, perhaps moving out. These are big words... only patience, calm, is what I follow. Yet sometimes a push is good. No more calm, no more patience, time to act! to decide, to talk, to express yourself from inside out. Wipe away tears, close eyes and move on.
nite.

Felicidades

a ti, ya sabes quien eres. La persona mas importante en mi vida. Gracias por tus consejos, por tu apoyo incondicional, por estar ahi siempre. Gracias por recordarme quien soy y animarme a seguir adelante. Como bien dices eso de ir de victima no funciona. Hay que volar. Tu sabes que yo antes volaba, alto. Ahora mi vuelo es diferente pero con ganas y pasion por desplegarme de nuevo, volar, salir de aqui.... esperanza es lo que tengo y siempre tendre. Te echo de menos. Te quiero mucho. Buenas noches.

Love

... is free. A friend, trust, respect, consideration, passion, to tell you I love you.... to need someone. Support, share and to rely on someone. Is it only in dreams? can it last? do we understand our feelings? do we control them?

Eleni is sweet, adorable, such an easy character. I sometimes get upset at her but she never gets upset at me. She lets go so easily, so pure.
Love the music by Sarah McLachlan.
Have a beautiful night, sleep well.

Spring

Hola, welcome day and night, welcome sun and flowers, welcome colors and smells, welcome open windows and fresh air, welcome little bugs and butterflies, welcome strawberries, welcome playground. Third Spring in Greece... never thought I would last this long here... anxious for what the future holds, looking forward for some changes, starting a new era. I am Carolina, and I have been forgotten for quite sometime now... I need... must find myself because I have big plans and time does not wait.
Can't help but think of the injustices of the world... of the poor kids being shot at schools, of the poor Syrians killed everyday and how no one talks about them.. their life is just as important as ours! shit.... how my kids have everything and I see kids with nothing... I give, clothes, toys, but it is never enough.

Still, I am sure we all welcome Spring, because it is nothing but nice.

Enjoy the equinox.
love and hugs to all.

Vertigo

the movie. San Francisco.... my city, the city of my dreams, memories, views, smells, colors.... I know many of us know these feelings. Better not to think about it I say. The present is here. Today, beautiful weather, outing with nice company. My kids speaking Greek, talking Greek... it feels strange to me. It is such a different culture... I feel distant to it.
There is always time to fly... I know I will soon.
This is an exciting week, beginning of Spring, new moon, renovation, closer to April!
besos.

Thankful

for having our health, our families, our homes, our food. Thank you clean water, electricity, so many resources that are so important and yet many people around the globe lack. Not fair... the world lacks justice. Thank you opportunities. Thank you chocolate for making our lives sweeter.
Have a wonderful night.

Omiros

It really is a beautiful name. He got a haircut... by me... and he asked 'duele?? ' then after the event he said 'mama parezco un marciano con antenas!' :)
Yesterday was not a good day.... but again it is over. Today is better. However I still wonder about the same things day after day, will I ever?... buah! I hope one day I will.
Do we need 10.000 hours, 10 years of practice to become good at something? I mean elite! I guess I am not elite on anything. It makes me wonder how soon should I get my kids involved into something that they will enjoy and practice and practice. Will they miss their chance if they don't start soon?
Have a great day! spring really is in the air! yahooooooo! ;)

Mama...

How important is it the place you raise your kids in? the environment around you, the culture, society? how will these factors affect your kids future lives? Are we born with talents or practice practice makes us talented? ... I think the second ... but also we need the time and opportunities to succeed... buff just thinking.... as Master Oogway (Kung Fu Panda) said "There are no accidents" :-)

Blink

Gladwell. Loved it. A few posts back I commented on how much should we trust our intuition, our gut feeling. How about in small, everyday life, decisions to think thoroughly... how about on life changing situations to trust your instinct, your unconscious without thinking too much, just listen to your first instinct... not what we usually do right?
Contempt... the worst feeling someone could have in a relationship..... bad sign..... I feel it.... just radom thoughts about the book. Have you read it?
So... what is your favourite part of the day? to me it is the morning coffee, although not quiet, not silence but it is somehow relaxing. The view over the window of our apartment it is also important, the mountain and sun rising over the horizon. That is quiet.

Forrest

Gump... One of my favourite movies. The movie and the feelings that it brings me, the memories of CA, DC, the music. I feel sad... but happy. Life goes on... I do know the day will arrive... somehow that i will feel free again that I will live the life I wish. Noone can take away your dreams, noone can control your thoughts.
New week, new chances, new wind. Can't wait to see my family, friends. Miss ya!
nite nite. and big smile ;))

Hola

Amigos. I haven't written in a couple of days and I miss it, I miss you.  Just when I needed a bit of inspiration, I raised my eyes and there it was... the full moon trying to show in between the clouds. The moon with a veil as my good friend described it. After intense feelings ... down... it gets better. True, when you are already down you can only go up. Home sweet home, no matter what, home is such a special place. I wish I could feel these way about everything else.
Have you seen the short animation (pixar) film Boundin? bounce bounce bounce and rebounce la la lalalala. Love it!
Wow again the noon is amazing... that is the advantage to live on the 5th floor with no other buildings covering that piece of sky.
Have a wonderful night... because the night is for lovers....
muac

Faces

 gestures, say so much. So much of a person, of their feelings, of a country, of a culture. Here in Greece people gesticulate alot more than in the US and even Spain. Faces that go with the lifestyle, with the state of crisis, with the state of mind. I wish I could be a mind reader.... at least know alot more about the face, the moves of muscles that say so much with just a blink. The tone of voice also, the intonation in the words that are emphasized. The looks ..... Funny, when I walk around Madrid, I feel one more, part of the society, integrated, we are alike... here I feel such a foreigner. In the US I felt integrated, I always did, specially in California, relaxed, part of the country. These are subtle things that do matter alot to me.
Good to hear that a friend in Boston may be reading this soon :)
buenas noches.

dreams

... should we follow our dreams? should we change them to make someone else happy? should we put them in the back burner until the right time comes around? that is what I am doing never give up on dreams but wait until it is the right time..... yet again... will it ever be the right time?
Today again job searching.
Have a great day!! :-)

Good...

Morning.... zero sleep last night.... Eleni is sick and woke up several times. On top of things she woke up at 6 am, end result = no sleep. Waiting for nap  time now. It is a beautiful sunny morning, temps will be near 20! :)

What ever happens happens and it is for the best... you make it be. Love that American saying 'you gotta do what you gotta do'. Heard some news from a friend that is moving to Hawaii.... pretty cool.... awesome, beginning of an amazing adventure. All the best to you!

Anyway we are in March and my kids are still stuck in Xmas time, watching xmas videos and singing xmas songs..... I keep telling them the Easter bunny will arrive soon!
Did I tell you?? going to Madrid in April! :-)
Have a great day!!!
besos