is it?

"it's not having what you want is wanting what you've got"
There is something about weather that is just beautiful, way above all of us.  We are down here small, so small, but so big.
 Difficult to face the day, blocking unwanted thoughts.
Back to my kids that make me happy.
Ready to fly again, just trying to learn the way again.
Have a great day!

CA

just

... to welcome 28 day February. Just to say hi. Just to say that 'no he dejado ni un momento de pensar'. Just to say I do stop and smell the flowers. Just to say I still feel anguish, melancholy. Just to say that my kids teach me love, patience, show me the way when I am lost. Just to say that I want to scream everyday but that I do not do it because of them. Just to say there is hope and there will always be hope in my heart, perhaps not in my mind. Just to say that I miss some things like crazy but that I keep going because it is OK, it is human. Just to say I want to help you in any way I could.
Just to say good night to you.
CA.

music

always inspiring to write, to think, to feel. But only the right music speaks to us.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyihQtBes1I

My kids' hugs, love, words, company, they are just happiness. Last day of January 2013, odd year, odd month, 3 years away, odd again. It will eventually get even. I know it and it will all be worth it in the end. I want to write. I want to learn. I want to teach. If there would only be time... at least time to sleep 7 hours straight.

Happy February!

 

Hola

I am here, hiding sometimes but nothing to hide. Wanted to fly to CA too but also wanted to avoid the pain to leave again. I think I have accepted to make it work, but does this mean I will never get my way, my dreams? True that every decision we make take us to a new place for a reason, we build our own paths. Whatever it is, it is for the best. Is it though? not sure.
CA.

endure

... endure... endure.... you can do it, we can do it. There is light in the end,  I can start to feel it to see it, to hear it and even taste it. Go go go. Afraid, very afraid BUT it will get easier.
good night to you.

quote

Loved this quote and wanted to share with you.

Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without.
James C. Dobson

In the mean time trying the best I can at what I do, yet wondering and dreaming off California. Still I am California or Carolina, same thing.

Have a wonderful evening.

2013

Odd number. Was it a good start of the year for you? I hope so. I always thought it was important to start well the new year. I believe on the wishes made that day, on the dreams and hopes for the year to come. Yet for me it was not a good start. Unfortunately I have to say it was filled with fears and anxiety, uncertainty and pain. But today I am better and it is all about today right? move on, look forward, reborn I may say.
How much is too much? I guess each one of us sets our own limits yet enough is enough.

Good evening to you from me,
California