Routine

after reading from a fam/friend about Routine, just today I was longing the routine days. But slightly different. The starting routine schedule in September when kids go to school and I may have time for myself, to study, work, exercise, cook, read, music, rest, walk, shop until I drop (no, not really). Create my own routine, a clever one if possible that I would be able to look forward to every morning.  Routine has such boring connotation but it doesn't have to be. Make it great! it is your own time, live it! Ignore the problems, the anxiety, the exhaustion for a while and go for it! the day is yours.
Needed to cheer us up!
good night.

Hola

Angel, are you there? with who should we be compared? or shouldn't we at all? how is that done? Change the chip!! I say, again how is that done?
Today I read something interesting: 'It is more honorable to have a life full of mistakes than a life of nothing at all.'
Life is here and now and to make our best our heart/mind cannot be somewhere else. Change the chip! Adapt! so easy to say... lalalalalala.
Good night and a big smile :D

little things

those little moments, are these what life is made out of that makes it worth living? Just a walk in the sun, near the water, near the sea port. That was all I needed it today to breath again. Just that scape, those minutes alone  free thinking.
Do you also wonder about the 'what if.....'  is it inevitable?
Off to bed, will be dreaming of the fireworks around my chosen country USA.
Happy 4th of July.
nite nite

panic

breath, calm, panic, panic, yoga, breath. Hope is there however is changing shape. Trying to say and think pisitive however energy is running low.
Afraid but encouraged for the future. Things will change. I will make it happen. Writing always makes me relax.
Good afernoon Santa Cruz.

June

Last night. A month of chaos, of change, heat, mixed feelings once again. It has been a while since I have time/peace to write. Wanted to wish you all a great start of July. Not my favourite month by far but at least a month to swim in the sea.
Make the best of it, my kids are the best of it now. Having messy icecream together, comminucating at higher levels with my 5 year old girl. Time sure flies. Yet I cannot say I am living my dream, can yo say that? I wish I could but so many things are far from what I wish for my life and the kids. We can't have it all, or can we?
No stars to see, no peace and silence, so why the move? not sure yet. I hope things will get better, I know there is a reason to everything in life. Every decision we make, it all affects our life's path.
I send a big hug to all of you, to my friends in CA, Monterey, Santa Cruz, San Francisco, MD, Spain and all around the world.
A smile to take it to your favourite place.
;D

highlights

of the day. At least we will always have that. Yesterday we had a gay parade here, loved watching it. Of course the 2 goals of Spain against France made me smile, feel proud. Today a powerful thunderstorm, heavy rain, wild winds, lovely smell, beautiful. My son saying 'mama cierra la puerta que se escapa el gato' funny!
missing you

Transition

excitement, emptiness, euphoria, stress, exhaustion, mixed feelings. New beginning? No, continuation but on a better mood I hope. Breath, relax, it is all going to be OK. You are there :) up in the stars, far into the horizon, floating in the water. Communication breakthrough?
May have a chance to see the Auroras Borealis this winter.
Have a wonderful summer night.